thankfully caught off guard...

do you ever cry out of happiness and sadness
at the same time?

i was caught off guard when my tears fell
as i was hugging my soft cheeked baby today.

i was caught off guard when my tears fell
as i watched three children march down the stairs
dragging bean bags behind them for a movie night
in the big sisters bedroom.

i was caught off guard when my tears fell
as i listened to a sad song,
and then a happy one.

i was caught off guard when my tears fell
thinking about how i'd have to wait
five more days until i snuggled my husband.

i was caught off guard when my tears fell
as i thought off kindness shown by dear people.

as tade lept into his crib tonight after an emotional day
of bumps, falls, tantrums and spills,
it was as if he was surrendering himself to exhaustion
and gleefully jumped into his cozy blankets
to sleep the hardships away.


thank goodness we get another day.

i was telling some friends
that perhaps our family is hanging in limbo
because there is a lesson still to be learned.

come on lesson,
i'm ready for you...

i'm crying for happiness
i'm crying for sadness
but most of all
i'm...